Wonder why we ever go home

  I haven't posted in a while. Just don't know what to really think. I know I will never feel normal, complications from chemo, radiation, and the surgery have left me with lymphodema and though manageable I haven't figured out how to do it.

  I am tired of this my left thigh is twice the size of my right and I can't move it like I could.

  Key West was great if I am going to die soon let me do it there. I really felt at home I got plenty of exercises and really didn't feel like I was lost.

  I come back to Rkansas and go through each day just to get by.  Come on warm weather. I am glad no one reads this I guess it doesn't matter that there are only a few things worth living for.

  My niece is fighting breast cancer again and her mother, my sister has just broken her shoulder and is really going down from MS.  

  DAMN LIFE USE TO BE GOOD

A Little Bit of Paradise

  Second night in Key West and everything so far has been great. We went to a really nice, slightly expensive restaraunt for lunch. I am so lucky to have Theresa and Kathy here doing all this for me. It will be hard to leave knowing I'm going back to Chemo on Monday. Live for today. 

  Tomorrow I will ride around and just explore all I can. This is a beautiful place.

Willie the Wandering Gypsy and ME

  Getting ready to head to Key West to hang with TH and Kathy for 6 days. I am so in need of this. I had to take off and come home just feel like I didn't get enough rest.

   Sun is starting to come up supposed to be around 65 today can't wait for some warm. I will be taking  it easy today and being LAZY.

That Old Time Feeling

  Seems like I will never have that old time feeling again, but I don't feel too bad. I feel run down and haven't been sleeping well but tonight no distractions I hope to be in early. Friday night Sammi and I get to watch movies, snuggle and sleep late. Saturday's and Sunday's let me re energize. 

   Nine days and counting can't wait for my week off from Chemo and waking up in Key West. I am so lucky to have a sister that is so strong and loving that she would put this trip together. Well as cold as it is here it is colder in a lot of places. I t will warm up!!

He aint Heavy

  It is so nice to have a sub q shot instead of the IV. Didn't get treatment Friday my white count was too low.  I almost feel normal except my left thigh. I know something is not right but at least I don't have headaches.

  The temperature is colder than I like 40 deg. but Key West is coming soon. I am going to enjoy that week as if it were my last.  I could not have a better friend or sister I could never make it without TH. It is so funny how you grow up fighting, arguing, or competing only to love each other more than you could ever imagine. Four sister and two brothers all seven of us still around and sharing our strengths. We have one unreal family and Pop is still around to share his love and wisdom. I wish all families could have what we do.

My Head Hurts, My Feet Stink

Happy New Year. It was a quiet one coming in just hung out with Sammi and shot fireworks off the back of the boat.

  Chemo is wearing on me, I am ready to take some time off. So loking forward to Key West. I don't feel like the tumor is gone my thigh is just too tight. PET scan should let us know. 

  Whatever happens I willkeep on fighting. I have way too much I want to do.

  I hope anyone reading this can appreciate what they have the way I am learning to. Laugh every day!!