Wonder why we ever go home

  I haven't posted in a while. Just don't know what to really think. I know I will never feel normal, complications from chemo, radiation, and the surgery have left me with lymphodema and though manageable I haven't figured out how to do it.

  I am tired of this my left thigh is twice the size of my right and I can't move it like I could.

  Key West was great if I am going to die soon let me do it there. I really felt at home I got plenty of exercises and really didn't feel like I was lost.

  I come back to Rkansas and go through each day just to get by.  Come on warm weather. I am glad no one reads this I guess it doesn't matter that there are only a few things worth living for.

  My niece is fighting breast cancer again and her mother, my sister has just broken her shoulder and is really going down from MS.  

  DAMN LIFE USE TO BE GOOD