Cowboy in the Jungle

I have stayed away for awhile lost and wondering whats next. Brought my boat back from Memphis via rivers, three great days and a memory for Sammi and I. My body seems to be going down hill. I am so ready for south Texas and some true relaxation.
Wish I was headed for sandy beaches and palm trees.

SUCKS

CANCER SUCKS I want to see my eleven year old daughter grow up. I want to cruise the Gulf Coast. I want to enjoy life,sit on a beach, play guitar and grow older. I may just give up and go and when it gets me it does.

Boat Drinks

Been working on boat getting it ready for trip from Memphis and recovering from chemo doesn't help. When I get back I am going to have to see the surgeon new spot on back of thigh this time. I wish someone would find a cure for Melanoma soon.
Thanks giving is next big break and I am already looking forward to it.

Where the Boat Leaves From

Getting ready to bring boat from Memphis via the Mississippi to the Arkansas. May be a little rough with chemo Thursday before we go. World Championship Cheese Dip was fun. The summer is gone and I want to find it.

Where the Boat Leavs

Where the Boat Leavs

Where the Boat Leavs

Wedding day in Funeralville

My son's wedding was great so glad the headaches were not too bad. I was able to have a good time and not bring it down. Now back to the grind and tell the Dr. about the stiff neck and headache.

Come Monday

Headaches for the last week and a half will talk to the Dr. Monday at chemo. The no chemo for a week going to my son's wedding. Really looking forward to seeing some people. But Come Monday it starts all over.

My Head hurts My Feet Stink

I hate feeling like CRAP. Thank goodness I go back to my normal schedule next week. I'm not sure what to do about the boat. Oh well whatever works out is OK. After the wedding things should settle down and be somewhat normal.

Backsliders wine

I am ready to get back to Monday Thursday chemo this Tuesday Thursday hurts bad. I feel like I have been drinking cheap wine and something ran over my head. I keep losing friends and old co-workers to cancer. Two in Shreveport in the same week.
the wedding is getting closer and I am ready for life to get back to normal. Wish I could take a week long boat ride.

Boat 'ride

I am so tired chemo tuesday and thursday hurts. I don't even know what feeling good is anymore. I so wish there was a cure for this shit. I am just about ready for the last boat ride . Just found out Parks died from Melanoma yesterday. I am ready for a change of some positive kind. Oh well I'll quit crying in my beer and keep trying for a little while longer.

Lost in the Ozone Again

Rough week but the weekend with Sammi was worth it. I know the reasons I keep fighting but sometimes I need help and no one there. Well we all make our lives for the greatest part and I know I have not been the best companion in a relationship but I love my kids and friends. Hoping the DC trip is a great as it can be.

Hate Goodbyes

Great time in Memphis played golf like a goat smells. Music, food, drink and company couldn't have been any better. It was so good to see Matt and hang out. Beale Street is on my top ten list.
Chemo yesterday sucked and my head is killing me today. Well I just keep staggering forward.

Come Monday

This week was strange felt great Tuesday after my big hit on Monday and Thursday wiped me out. This weekend to recover and come Monday start all over again. What would it be like to just quit? Sammi and I are gonna party till we drop tonight and Thursday Matt this is why I even try. Sam's 6th grade oreintation on Tuesday that should be interesting.

Some Days are Diamonds some Days are Stones

Feel better today got to sleep in until 5:30 tomorrow is laundry day and I will sleep in again. The golf/Beale street trip is getting closer and I can't wait. Really ready to find a new boat. Wonder what it would be like to be retired?

Shitty day in Paradise

Feel like crap chemo sucks and lying down in my pump for two hours is a drag. The no frills hangover is getting old. Tonight is Friday night and I am glad. Work tomorrow but that's ok. I hope tomorrow is good.

Well haven't been on for quiete a while. New tumors, new medical bills and I am getting tired of chemo twice a week. Meeting my son in Memphis for some r&r will be nice then his wedding in October.
Don't know where to go for #60 in January but hope to be somewhat warm. Wondering if fighting this crap is worth it sometimes I feel like hell most of the time but I just don't knkow how to give up.