Just got back from the wedding an it was great. Not quiete like Matt's where the cousins got a little crazy. Steal this bar of soap right you that is too much like me? I really missed Mom and Dad for some reason but the ones that were there made it great. I haven't sent this to any of my family and have no followers and thats good because I hope this is my story to read when I am gone. It is so hard to talk about what I will miss the most because it is family. No actually I won't miss anything I will be dead, but thinking about what I would miss makes me cry. CANCER SUCKS When it comes to the end Willie stole my line " Roll me up and smoke me when I'm gone".

Getting ready for Chris's wedding. Thinking about what we have in store. I am so ready to start putting my shit in order. So much to do. Knowing I have a PET scan scheduled and knowing that what ever it shows won't change the outcome I do get down a little. Great time at the private Eli Young concert made me realize life is still good. Tired from too much activity getting ready for bed and so hsppy I get to see Matt and Katy.

Roll with the Punches

We just keep loosing more as we get older Gary, Steph, Dad and old friends. I don't know why I find it so hard to keep up with this I guess if I was more interesting or more exciting it would be different. Busted some ribs Saturday and damn it hurts. Really looking forward to Chris and Jamie's wedding and seeing Matt. I have the most amazing children there are times I want to brag but don't because I get carried away. Missing Sammi, I know she is growing up and will move on but it hurts. My brothers and sisters have all been such a strength for me if I didn't have them to lean on not sure what I would do some time. Richard really carrying the load in Dad's death, funeral and the execution of the will. I need to get with Th and go over mine again. Sometimes I feel like it's coming way too soon. Well this week get fuel cleaned in big boat and get little boat in water.