Ride Me Down Easy

  Went in for my chemo Monday and started reading my medical book again. Started to remember what my oncologist said. I most likely wont live long enough to retire (that sucks). I will be taken by melanoma and it will be painful ( that sucks more).

  I tried to explain this to my ex whom I have been fighting with about time with my daughter and she either refuse's to understand or ignores because it bothers her. Maybe a lightening bolt would wake her up.

  I know she has her trials with the adoption of her brothers four children. I have tried to help and be a positive source for her but she just keeps on blaming me for not staying with her.

  Yes I took the selfish path but I knew if we stayed together we would totally hate each other at least this way we can be friends even though we fight.

  If I haven't stated before I have a 28 year old son that is unbelievable and a 9  year old daughter that owns my heart. Yes I have a permanent reminder of a temporary feeling. But I would not trade a second of my life with either of them for anything.

  Well enough of my boring life for today.