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Things have been going weel. All test came back clean, feel goood, blood pressure is down and I am on the last full day of a great visit with my son and daughter in law. I haven't spent much time with Katie before and she is wonderful. A beautiful, fun, intelegent young women. I have enjoyed this weeken beyound any expectations. DC is a fantastic place to visit. Will have to bring Sam next time.

Some things never change

The QSA banquet was ok just went on to long. Sam was at the boat and I just didn't want to hang out and not spend time with her. She is an amazzing daughter. Not sure why I have two great children but I am so lucky. Getting more excited to see Matt every day.

And the beat goes on

Well all the test are in and they didn't find anything other than a slight blockage at end og esophagus so I am a little happy. Things seem to be as normal as is possible. Need to get some work done on engines and get them right so I can make a few river trips this summer. A little over a year ago lost dad and I miss him and think about him often he would have enjoyed the boat even though he had a heart for sailing. Guess I am just to lazy to do all the work to sail. Might not be so bad in the gulf. Winter seems to be fading and I am glad, hate cold. Getting excited about seeing Matt and Katie in March.

Just thinking about why I am here and still kicking. I have no fucking idea. Thank you what ever power you are. Just finished some real soul searching thoughts with my sister and gave her this site. Really mixed about that she is the reason I do this. Knowing she will pass it to Matt and Sam, but thinking I would pass it after I was able to write something worth sharing. Oh well maybe she won't find it for a while.

Hey it's Foggy outside

Saturday morning Sam is still sleeping, I ahve had breakfast and a cup of coffee. It seems I am becoming a morning cofee drinker. Not sure why but enjoyed it today with a good breakfast. Scheduled for an upper GI on Wednesday hope it is as cleean as my colonoscopy was. I am a little frustrated with the doctors office not Dr. Gordan. I really enjoy foggy mornings once in a while the quiet and calm on the river is nice. Storms predictated for Monday and Tuesday some may be rough, will have to batten down the hatches. I really need to get rid of some junk. Number 62 coming up Monday may have to go out for lunch.

Feeling Alright not feeling to bad myself

It's probably not what your supposed to want but I have always hoped no one would read this until it was time and so far I think I'm OK. So many things going on really messing with my mind headaches I knew were my cancer spreading were a light concussion, constant loose bowel movements I knew were cncer spreading to my intestines turned out to be my diet. My colonoscopy turned out to be clean. So I need to really move towards the future. Living on a boat you have to be aware of sounds and movement. Sitting in my easy chair watching tv I heard a strange noise, I imediatly knew it was a water leak and opened up the access to the generator and water lines found the leak and repaired it. I need to quit using dock water and use my fresh water tank. It feels so good to know I am OK for now!

Another Saturday Survived

Fun time last night with Karaoke on the dock just a few to many beers. Tomorrow wont be much fun preparing for colonoscopy. I am really worried about this one. My symptoms aren't a good sign. Not sure what I will do if it turns out like I think. I think I will try to get ahold of Greg and Kat and see if he will help me with my engines. Think I need to get it ready. Have to go by Kroger before work for boullion.

Cheese to go with my Whine

Wow was I feeling sorry for myself. Oh well just move on and enjoy whatever is left. But remembering, painting water towers, skinny dipping, getting swats for kissing Glenda Wynn in the hall at school, walking to school and thinking it must be ten miles, broken legs,jaw and foot but at different times. How did I make it past the ninth grade? My poor family having to put up with me and suffer through fights, bruises and bloody lips(that one I just can't forget). I don't know that I was any meaner than other kids but I had a very short fuse and that was not good. I had some good friends back then and wonder how things turned out for them. If we had never left East Texas I'm sure I would have ended up in some kind of trouble. The move was life changing for us all. So many great memories of Las Vegas so many ggod people and crazy times.

Doctors should be nicer

I have so much in my head and no one to really talk to that I want to cry, scream, run off to the gulf and let it all just come no matter what. I feel like the Dr's office want to stretch it all out and get every penny they can. My body tells me something is not right and I want to know and they tell me it will be a few weeks. After over six years of sitting round waiting to die I think I need to just say screw it and go to the gulf.

Sunday the calm before the storm

Well some ugly weather coming our way. I just finished two bagels and thinking about p-p&f. I remember swimming in White Oak and going off the high dive maybe 4 or 5 years old. Don't remember much about Summer Grove except back yard football games and that could be where we saw Rudolph. Lot of memories about Grand Cane, it seemed like our house was huge and the front yard and drive way went on forever. The front yard would flood when we had really good rains and I remember someone catching a little catfish. The trains roaring by across the highway, the trucks and busses rolling by and the sound of air breaks when that got close to town. We use to take hiking adventure through fields and pastures behind our house. Going to a small lake with a big pipe sticking up and that cold water flowing out of it. I never knew until later how small the town was, I thought it was normal for first and second grade to be in the same room. Everyone knowing each other and who was sick or in trouble (usually me) and hayrides on Halloween through the graveyard. The trips back to East Texas towns with strange names like Kickapoo and Keatchie, singing most of the way all nine of us in a station wagon. Dad always sang riding on the hay wagon. Well maybe more later.

A new body of water

I decided on Hampton Inn and glad I did. I am so afraid that its getting real close. My stool is always soft,I have been having indegestion problems for the first time in my life and my head either hurts or feels wierd. I keep thinking how much much I'm going to miss everyone I truly love, too many to mention but Sam, Matt, Theresa, Laura, Richard, Dolores,Larry and Gen my family, but I teary eyed realize I won't miss you I'll be dead. While Im dying I will and do think about the times. My earliest momories of Pine Tree fourth grade, later Sunni Spraggins, Later Glenda Wynn, partying before leaving Pine Tree with Sam Vaughn. Las Vegas so many great and crazy times. To be continued

Friday nights alright

Hanging out with Sam she just went outside to talk with Britaney (girl talk)she is growing into a teenager. Feel really good no headache today but not looking forward to colonoscopy. Taking an escape and we are going to a hotel with an indoor pool tomorrow. I really don't like co;d weather I need to move to the gulf. still planning on a weekend with Katie and Matt in February it will be short but worth while.

Ain't it funny how time slips away

Well I get to do a colonoscopy scared that its coming down. It really sucks but too many strange things going on with my body. Taking Sam to Crown Plaza for one night going to see Matt in Feburary just in case it turns to shit. I want it to go on for ever but I know it is a limited time so I will enjoy all I can with out being stupid.

Keep on Keeping on

CT scan results will be back tomorrow whatever happens happens. Headaches may have been a concussion according to Dr. Really need to go to DC will start looking for tickets tomorrow. Sam will be upset but will take her in spring. Can't wait for warm weather will find a beach somewhere and enjoy.

Another New Year

Power outages crappy weather good way to end 2012 and New Years with Cody, Brenda, Ethan and Sam was great. Wonder what this year has in store, I plan on a few changes and completing projects is the main one. Hope to get to DC in February. Sam says she won't live with her mom if she stays with her husband. I can't believe she went back to him but that is her decision I hope it works for her sake but I know Sam isn't happy about it. I love spending time with Sam but I need to make her read more. Right now 9:28 am she is still sleeping. Have to take her home today and I wish she could stay forever. Well back to work tomorrow.