Doctors should be nicer

I have so much in my head and no one to really talk to that I want to cry, scream, run off to the gulf and let it all just come no matter what. I feel like the Dr's office want to stretch it all out and get every penny they can. My body tells me something is not right and I want to know and they tell me it will be a few weeks. After over six years of sitting round waiting to die I think I need to just say screw it and go to the gulf.